joy

so i havent had the chance to blog for a week because i've been up a mountain and landed on my head, tied up and rushed to a german hospital where i would undergo 4 days of laying on my back waiting to get my clavical operated on because its splintering into my muscle right now... that was a glorious run on sentence. i know my grammar and punctuation is always lacking but i have to type with one hand today so it may seem progressively worse this afternoon.

all i can say about the last week is that i am experiencing true JOY... you wouldnt think a barrage of madness could instigate something like joy but i tell you that i feel loved, i feel broken in the best sort of way, i am optimistic about the future and i am who i am because Jesus loves me. i wouldnt be here without the support of family and friends and its possible that one could live an entire life and miss out on the joy that comes from knowing Christ. i know that joy and i trust Him by faith. the opposition can shake the world, break my bones, disturb my heart and i may even be alone but i am with Him. i am a branch that gets life from the true vine, accepting no imitations.

situations force you to choose your path. our selfish hearts long for the comfy road of sunshine blue skies 75 degrees and nothing can derail our plans and goals. we try to become someone we are not at times because we want to fit in with the world. have you ever taken the narrow road? the narrow road doesnt always make sense, you may not even have a place to rest your head or you may skip out on a meal every now and then... you may feel like you are digressing on this path, you may feel like you arent even getting where you want to go but the narrow road is not about you... its about you becoming who God wants you to be. im not done yet, and theres no turning back. its on this road that ive found joy holding hands with pain, where love overcomes loneliness and where light saturates the darkness.

all im trying to say is True Joy is found in the True Vine. Jesus is the rock when everything is spinning, and you find Him on the narrow road.

im empty but full of life

im a sinner yet He stands in my place

i am full of pain and joy and peace

i am weary yet confident in His Word

nothing can seperate me from the love of Jesus Christ.